Earlier this week, my friends and I met for a LARP. Much fun was had. We must do it again...

I've seen the Dark Knight three times already. I want to see it at least one more before it leaves threatres, but I'm currently broke. Such an amazing movie... Maybe my favourite ever.

On opening night, my brother and I went to the midnight showing in full Joker-face. We were the only ones. But we did see a "bat girl" (cape and belt, no cowl, regular clothes), and what appeared to be a fillipino Robin.

I'm psyched--super psyched!--about the Watchmen movie. I saw the preview for it and almost shat myself. When the trailer was over, I yelled "Whoo! Quis custodiet ipsos custodes!" ...I was the only one who seemed to know what it was, though. Every one else was silent.

As for Dark Knight itself... Wow. There are no words for that sort of greatness. I found a ringtone of the Joker saying 'why so serious' and set it on my phone. Later that day, I was at Wal Mart, looking through the posters, and I saw a really neat one of the Ledger Joker. So, I was looking through the bins for it (it wasn't there, ultimately), and I started saying to myself, "Why so serious? ...*why* so serious?" again and again.

Turned out my phone was ringing but instead of answering it, I had decided to talk along with it.

...my nerdom is showing.

It's been a long while. I have no new art. Nothing worth posting.

Everything has become... Empty. Distant somehow... I try to draw, but become discouraged by the thought that there's just no point in it. No one tries to convince me otherwise; I'm withering up on the inside while every one turns away. I'm still drawing, but it's empty and the drawing are empty. Drawings, writings--even roleplay. None of it has a point anymore, no matter how much I used to love it.

I've gotten into Superheroes a lot lately. Partly, this is because of Watchmen. But, partly it's because of... Ah, it seems like more effort to explain than it's worth. Everything seems that way... Oh, but anyway, it's the mythology and the meaning of superheroes that draws me to them. They... It's sort of like nostalgia, you know? There's something definate about them.

I spent my whole vacation reading the comics for the Flash, and watching his show from the 90s.

...my dad promised me a cat if I get straight As on my next report card. That would be an unlikely occurance...

*sigh*... Ever get the feeling that everything was falling apart and everyone was drawing away from you? I feel that way now. I dread each coming day, and I'm really starting to feel that it's not even worth getting up for in the morning. I look up at the weapons on my wall every morning and every night and I think to myself, "If only it weren't so messy..."

I... I think everyone has days like that, though. But mine seem to be so tightly packed together, I just don't know how I'll manage this...

...I guess all I can do is play video games, and try not to think about any of this...

I am disgusted by what I see as I Random Deviant my way across this site...

I'm not a bad artist. I'm by no means the greatest, and I never will be. These things I know. I know also that there are tons of artists much, much worse than me. And on this site, no less. I know they are so bad they really haven't the right to call themselves artists. And yet, I have so few comments, favourites, or watches. Understandable. As I said, I am far from the best. I am not discouraged by this--I will try harder.

However, I've seen many people who are no where near as good as myself, and yet their watcher list goes on for miles. All because, mind you, they draw these stiff, pseudo-anime drawings. The drawings are not good, but, since they hold a dim resemblence to DBZ they're praised and favourited. This is ridiculous.

I have the same problem with fan art. People favourite when it's not good JUST because they like the fandom. It's insanity! Insanity, I tell you! This is insanity akin to voting for someone because of their party loyalties!

I see the same exact thing with writting. Bad writters on FictionPress--and there's no shortage of them--get reviews left and right, and for what? Fluff, fanservice, and empty, patched together stories with plotholes so deep it's a wonder you can't see China through them. The same goes for Fan Fiction.

I'm going insane. THIS is what discourages me. The fact that no matter how good I get, no one will give a tiny rat's ass so long as there's some bad doodle of a cat-girl to distract them.

Human beings disgust me.

I've been feeling kind of down, lately. This happens to me rather frequently, I've noted. Not sure what my problem is... I've been feeling very alone, I suppose, and rather insignificant. I've just been reading to keep my mind off it. In the last week, I've read "An Inconvient Book" by Glenn Beck, and the first two books of Phillip Pullman's "His Dark Materials" trilogy. The former has got me thinking rather hard about politics, and the later has got me wanting to write. Which is a good thing, because I haven't been writing so much, lately.

I've started typing what I have done of Postmortem. I think when it's finished, and after I've been over it, I'll send it to a publisher. I can't do that with the works I've already got done--I read somewhere that publishers don't like to accept books that have already been published elsewhere, because they loose first liscensing rights. This goes even for something on FictionPress. I don't really think Postmortem will get published... But it's worth a shot, I think. I kind of like it. Maybe others will...

I dunno, I don't feel too optomistic about it, I guess. But then, I don't feel to optomistic about anything just now... I really ought to finish my half of the art trade for Aermis. I feel terrible that I don't have it done yet, but I want it to look good, and I keep messing up...

*sigh* Can't go back to sleep... I'd better get back to writing...

Stolen from CyclopsTurtle

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Copy this whole list into your journal (including the instructions, so that other people can understand what it is about).
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
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3. Whatever you don't bold are false

001. I like laser pointers
002. I don't drink water
003. I believe in world peace
004. I sleep with a plushie
005. I'm ambidextrous
006. People accept me how I am
007. I'm addict to anime/manga
008. I speak 1337 better than english
009. I'm daltonic
010. I don't like mirrors
011. I play card games
012. Puppy eyes melt my heart
013. I have a job
014. I love chocolate
015. I can type faster than I speak
016. My heart is easier to break than my bones
017. I collect things
018. I don't trust people
019. I have a lucky number
020. I'm afraid of knives
021. I start too many projects and never finish them
022. I have more than one pet
023. I can't see anything without my glasses on (or contacts.)
024. I play chess
025. I have lied to protect other people
026. I am vegetarian
027. I know the future
028. I prefer books than movies
029. I love to draw
030. I don't have brothers
031. My handwriting is unreadable
032. I believe in extraterrestrial life
033. I don't use Google
034. I can't live without my cellphone
035. I always wear a cap
036. I have more diskettes than books
037. I've never seen a snow day
038. I'm not religious
039. I can understand graffiti tags
040. I'm not afraid of death
041. I go to the bathroom more than 7 times a day
042. I believe the government is into a conspiracy
043. I love videogames
044. I'm an activist for the defense of nature
045. I'm a moody person
046. I always carry a weapon with myself
047. I prefer cold than hot
048. I look for known shapes in the clouds
049. My Internet connection sucks
050. I rarely go to the cinema
051. I'm old
052. I have insomnia
053. I have tattoos
054. I don't know what people expect from me
055. I'm unbeatable in dominoes
056. I don't like IMs (Instant Messengers, like MSN or Yahoo)
057. Horror movies scare me
058. I used to eat non-toxic glue
059. I feel rather than think
060. I use Firefox
061. I have hope
062. I have a car
063. I remember what I dream
064. I don't need to use Liquid Paper/ Corrector Pen
065. I'm patriotic
066. I worship the devil
067. I hate Windows XP
068. I like solving crossword puzzles
069. I have a social life
070. I always read the newspaper
071. I checked the box to avoid seeing mature content in dA
072. My I.Q. is above 160
073. I like mexican food
074. I don't give a good impression
075. I get bored easily
076. I'm passing through a period of changes
077. I hate taking a bath
078. I can't go out without makeup
079. I don't know what RAM is
080. I like to talk about politics
081. I have a third eye
082. I'm uninteresting
083. I have a Blog
084. I have to take pills
085. I have lots of CDs
086. I always have a dictionary at hand
087. I'm tired of this quiz
088. I care about copyright protection
089. My computer is older than me
090. I have a boyfriend/girlfriend
091. I see dead people
092. I drink tea
093. I have a good memory
094. I've never been to a concert
095. I enter to my house through the window
096. When I was a child, I wanted to be an astronaut
097. I don't watch TV
098. I'm irresistable
099. I have invisible friends
100. I love deviantART

[Added by myself] 101. I corrected any errors I found in this survey.